Easter..The celebration of life…and Death.

March 25, 2010 by

Spring break is right around the corner…a time i  have been hopeing to avoid actually. Every one is happy and excited but to me its only a time of tears and bad memories. The same day that others celebrate and enjoy is the same day I want to miss and get over with. Easter is the celebration of spring and new life, to some its a symbol of new hope as well. But to me its a symbol of death and miseries. A time wher I was getting over by hardest loss….my mom…Died April 11. 2009. The day before Easter….loosing her was like some 1 riping a pice of ur heart and soul out while your kicking ans screaming to escape, then smashing it to pieces and putting it back in place and expecting it to be the same as it was before. It never is and it never will be. If her death wasn’t enough was killed me even more was the heartless attempt of my family to try and help me through it…my father showed up in the first time in7 months with his old GIRLFRIEND! ..I really hate her…she really thinks she can replace my mom..I don’t even  except her as a human…..and thankfully I haven’t seen them since..but the rest of the family didn’t do much better..they didn’t even act like my mother just died..they just did everything as normal and expected  me to do the same…and I did….I did what they wanted and hid my feelings, my emotions, I hid every sad upsetting thing that bothered me for so long. And I’m still hiding it all. acting like nothing bothers me. But I guess I’m getting off topic..I don’t really care tho. But I’m just going to end this by saying that spring isn’t all about new life and the start of something great…its also the time of death and the end of many great things as well..

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All I Want In A Dream..

March 19, 2010 by

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I lay here all alone.

Feeling my heart turn to stone.

As I fall asleep.

I think of things I want to keep.

I want to keep the part of me

That loves to sing and run free.

I want time to go back to fix the wrong I have done.

But I can only run.

I want my dad to care.

And my mom to just be there.

I want to keep my friends

And this list never ends.

But all the things I want most and choose

Are the things I slowly loose.

So I slip back into my dreams

Knowing nothing is what it seems.

But that’s where everything I want is,  liveing happily ever after.

Filled with happiness and laughter.

Living happy in my castle over a lake.

But I know it will all go when I awake.


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Writing Plan

March 18, 2010 by

  1. Birth
  2. Introduction includes the thesis statement
  3. /Death
  4. Childhood
  5. Family
  6. School
  7. Education/Training
  8. Jobs – Experiences
  9. Why writing?
  10. Books/Essays/Poems
  11. Awards
  12. Legacy – what can you tell us about him/her based on your research?
  13. Conclusion Restate the thesis statement.

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Dissapointment

March 12, 2010 by

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In my 15 years of life I have learned alot of things, but the most important thing that I think i have learned…is that life is full of dissapointments. You will dissapoint people and people will dissapoint you. People will say they will always be there and one way or another they wont.They say they will come for you and that you wont have to wait for them. but mostly in the end your stuck in the rain waiting….wandering where they…just hopeing its traffic thats keeping them from you..But inside you know the truth…You know they arent comeing.  so im the end your just stuck in the rain waiting for something you know wont happen. And no matter how hard you want to always be there for them you cant always be there. Dissapointment is a part of life. you have to live with it from day one even if it dosen’t seem like it. Its always there you just have to get used to dealing with it. Don’t let it drag you down and get the best of you. If you allow it to get you down then your going to be sad and misrable for most of your life. I dont really know why im writeing this…it might mean something to some of thet people that read it and others might think im dumb for writeing something with no real meaning…but again I guess ill just dissapoint some of my readers..

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book review “If I Should Die Before I Wake” By Han Nolan

February 25, 2010 by

images4If I Died Before I wake

By: Han Nolan

I wasn’t around during World War 2 but this book makes me feel like I was. When Jews where being forced from their homes. But was nothing that Hilary had to worry about because Hillary absolutely hated Jews. Hilary is a stubborn and Being part of the neo-Nazi gang in her town that was determined on finishing Hitler’s work on the demise of the Jews. But everything changes when she is critically injured and put in a Jewish hospital, where she is sent into a live that she has never lived. The live of a Jew named Chana who is living through World War 2.

Being forced from her home in Poland by the Nazis, her and her family is sent to the Lodz Ghetto. A terrible clouded place where the Jews are dumping Jew families from all over. Where they get little one room hotel for families with 5-8 people and even less food and water. These horrable conditions caused many to die and others to kill themselves.

As Chana and her sister Bubbe and the rest of her family try and survive through this horrible place. Hilary experiences everything that Chana is going through as if she is the same person. But as she connects back to the real world the only thing she can see in her coma is an old Jew woman.

I love this book because not only do I feel like Hilary going through the coma. But I also feel like in going through to the past of World War 2 with Chana and living through her life as well.

Chana and bubbe plan their exacape and getting new names as non-Jews. They get help to get to a train set to go to a safe place for Jews. But all goes wrong when one of chana’s old classmates recognize her and bubbe and gets them caught.

As Hilary Is going through this with Chana she is also going through a lot with her mother coming to visit her in the hospital. After her mother abandoning her as a child she never felt the same about her. I felt a connection to this as I felt I was abandoned by my parents when I was little.

Chana felt abandoned too. Abandoned by god. She felt like he left her and didn’t care anymore. Her constant struggle of trying to find faith gets her in a lot of internal debates and when she finally finds her faith again everything gets a little better for her.

To find out how chana and Hilary survive their battles and struggles you have to read the book “If I Should Die before I Wake” by Han Noland.

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Blizzard of 2010

February 19, 2010 by

images8On Friday the 5th was when it all started. The boredom, the isolation, the bitter cold and ofcorse the snow. It started right when it was time to leave school ofcorse just my luck. All the other schools got out early except cape but now I’m happy we didn’t get out of school early. Because when I got off the bus at about 4:00 pm it was starting to snow pretty badly. I didn’t think much about it thinking it would calm down. But again I was wrong. When I woke up on Saturday morning the snow was waste deep and impossible to get out of the front door. The cars where covered and buried in the snow u could hardly see them at all, they were surrounded by 5 feet snow drifts. That’s when I knew it was going to be a LONG weekend. I never knew it would last 10.

By the second day of being trapped and isolated inside we could finally manage to get outside to the front door to shovel the snow. And by then I was going insane from being stuck inside and away from my friends. Shoveling the porch took about two hours and we haven’t even got to the drive way yet. My face burning and fingers freezing from the cold it felt good to go inside and thaw out for a couple hours. Sleeping off the bitter cold that surrounded me for hours in my warm comfy bed. Waking up sore and stiff from shoveling snow I really didn’t want to shovel no more. But with my bad luck it started snowing again a couple days later. So I had to go out and shovel the new snow and the snow from the last storm. As we finished shoveling the drive way I was about sick and tired of all of this darn snow. My pop pop had to leave for work that day when we finished with the drive way. He got out the driveway just fine but only to get stuck in the road. So again we had to grab the snow shovels and dig him out the road. Oh joy.

I was starting to think the shovel would freeze to my hands from shoveling so much. By the time we finally got him back in the drive way it felt like I was tackled my fat football player. My muscles where so sore. Even though I was sore and stiff I felt like one of the lucky ones cause through all of this we always have had electricity but my cousin who lived just around the corner on the next street lost her electricity for 2 days. And if not loosening electricity was bad enough some peoples roofs where falling in. people were going into shelters due to lack of heat, or food. I felt lucky that nothing bad has happened to me. Because other people had more worried than just being sore from shoveling snow. But to pass the time of endless isolation and being bored I just texted people, read my book and draw. I was so happy when we got back to school and out of my house. I missed my friends, my teacher and even the work. I really hope we never have a blizzard like that again.

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Diary from Another World

January 28, 2010 by

C1)In what ways was Anne Frank an ordinary young girl with typical hopes and dreams?

Anne Frank was an ordinary young girl with hopes and dreams because she dreamed about her future and her freedom. When she was in hiding her free outside life was taken from her. She want able to go outside at all and play with her friends and do normal things the other children could do. Many things that we now take for granted like going outside and going to the movies Anne wasn’t able to do anymore in hindering. She wanted her old life back when she was able to go out and have fun. She was like normal because she dreamed about being out in a garden with flowers and being free again. Anne wrote all about her life in hiding about how she missed being about to play outside and even being in school around her friends. And she had a distant dream of having children or grandchildren when they would someday find her diary and read it and she would tell them of “the olden days” when she wrote the diary. When she would tell them about her experiences in hiding when Hitler took over. She had dreams and hopes about the future like any young girl.

D)if you had to stay in a two-room apartment for a year or more, what do u think you would miss most? Why?

If I had 2 stay in a two room apartment I know I would miss being able to go out and be free and be with other people. I would miss going to the movies with friends and being with my family. I would miss just walking around the woods and enjoying being in a relaxing setting around nature and away from chaos. But I would mostly miss my freedom and not being cooped up and caged. I hate feeling isolated from the world and I wouldn’t want it to happen to me. That’s that I would miss most..my freedom.

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Stephine Meyer

January 27, 2010 by

Stephine  Myer is one of the mostly known fiction book writers. she wrote the whole twilight series. the book is known everywhere. the twilight was a hge seller everywhere all teen girls and some guys love this book and has read the series

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What i think about the Play about Anne Frank

January 15, 2010 by

I think the play about Anne Frank was really well written and that the canficts with the people. i think the confict with her mother is normal for a teen girl at that age even in that time. she also has a confilce with Peter by makeing fun of him and wearing his clothes, i think that is her way of flirting with him but not leting anyone know.

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What i think of Anne Frank

January 7, 2010 by

I really feel sorry for this young girl looseing every thing she loved, and even more for her looseing her rights to lots of things just becaouse of who she is. It makes me feel sad and horrable inside that a careing 13 year old girl and her family where forced into hideing in fear of being sent to being to a consitration camp and being killed. Knowing the hell that her and other jews went through kinda makes me feel how lucky i am to live now and not back then

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